Into My Mind

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

Nothing Really

I was just thinking back about all my past friendships and I've realized that I've never had a best friend, heck I still don't. It doesn't really sadden me I guess, it used to but I've gotten over it. The only time when I even think about that is when I hear someone talking about his/her best friend. My eyes are kinda falling down, so I guess I better go to bed. I'll finish this later. Bye.

Saturday, March 27, 2004

...Hitting a wall....

I don't have writer's block, I just hit a wall with almost all of my writing projects. I don't know what to write in order to get to the next step. This is why I call it hitting a wall and not writer's block because with that I'd have no idea what to write next whatsoever. I know the tent poles that I want to put up in each story I just don't know how to go about it. And also, my parents blaring they're kaorke is not very helpful to my concentration. Now, that my dad is bitching again, I must go. Matched w/ the music and his voice (I swear he's a repressed angry gay man) I can't even write this entry. Later all.

Friday, March 26, 2004

I think my patience really gets tested when I'm around stupidity and annoying people. I refuse to name names but my god, I wonder how some people even make it to high school! It's unbelievable how some people can be so clueless about the smallest things.

There's this person who makes me cringe when they open their mouth. This is just because of their stupidity but also they're wasting the classes time. I'm not the only one who feels this way, I've heard a dozen people mutter "Will he/she just shut it because he/she is wasting our time!"

I gotta go but I will continue this.

I'm back and I have still have no patience for the ignorant. Just their voice gets to me because he/she sounds immature and the way that he/she writes is like the way he/she speaks. This is sucks because I've seen how butchered their papers are by the teacher. He'll explain something word for word in the most simpliest terms and he/she will still be like "I don't get it..what? HUH? Umm.. I don't know" He/she does this at least 5 to 6 times a class, I kid you not! If they did it occasionally, then I wouldn't mind at all. I ask questions myself but not after every sentence the teacher says. Sometimes I say to myself, "Is he/she even in the same room as me?" I used to feel bad for him/her when they would say "My entire AP class underestimates me" and now I know why! We're in a normal class together and more half the students cannot stand him/her at all. I can't even imagine how that AP class has handled it for almost a year! Hell, how did he/she get into a AP class in the first place? When class rolls around again, I need to buy myself some ear plugs.

........Close is too close enough......
It's been about two years since I've had a guy friend and I'm actually content with that. The last guy that I was friends with burned me and I definitely changed my outlook on relationshsips in general. I don't want to get close to any guy in general because of my last co-ed friendship. I'm honestly not ready and willing yet to open myself up. The only way I can protect myself from getting hurt again is to not let anyone get too close to me. Guys are the last thing on my mind right now. I'm not going to pursue any relationships for now. If I'm meant to be with someone then it'll happen but if I'm not then I'm ok with that. I believe that in order to live a fulfilling life that we all have to have some form of love not necessarily the romantic kind. This is how I feel, I'm not saying anyone has to agree with me but just respect and accept it. Plus, I'm so stubborn and I hate when people to change my mind. It's pointless because I won't back down.

My take on love and relationships has changed. I truly believe that when two people love each other they either make it work or they don't. Soulmates is something I just can't buy because I've heard so many say that they'be met their soulmates yet they either break up or divorce. I don't believe in the fairytale because reality isn't as romantic as the fake fairytale. Reality is what we have to deal with and also, nothing is perfect especially relationships. Love at first sight, personally, I don't believe it because usually a person loves their significant other because of his/her generosity or their kindness and you can't know that by just looking at their appearance. Love at first conversation is an entirely different situation. At least you get to know the person and how their personality is. This is just my realist way of thinking. I gotta go for now. Later.


I had to cut that last entry short because time was running out. I'm just going to continue on with my ramblings about my writing.

I'm still ignoring "Only A Game" which I feel bad about but at the same time I don't because we haven't really developed the plot and characters enough to start a rough draft. Phea is always out so I can't really consult her when I need to. I know that movie will be more of a supernatural thriller. We're going to try to scare people psychologically, so it'll stay with them. There's going to be a lot of dsiturbing images so we're pushing for an R rating. But I will definitely try to work on it during my independent study with Karibian next quarter.

For those of you who haven't seen the film, it came out June 7, 1985 and stars Sean Astin, Josh Brolin and of course Corey Feldman. The film has a large cast so I really don't want to name everyone. Goonies is about a group of teens trying to save their home (The Goon docks) from becoming a golf course. So, they go on a adventure to get One-Eyed Willy's treasure (he was a legendary pirate) and while doing so they're being chased by a family of criminals the Fratellis. It's comedy, action and there's little romance.

I've been basically giving all my attention to "Goonies 2". I heard that there have been five to six scripts and none of them have been really up to par. Personally, I really want this sequel to get made and I want it to be about the original Goonies and not about their kids. I told Phea this and we decided to write the script ourselves since we're hardcore fans and all. I watch the special edition DVD once every other week. Of course, I've been doing the all writing, which I don't mind. Currently, I'm halfway through the first act. It is posted online but I can't find the link. The feedback that I've gotten has been positive and I take it to heart because I've only let fellow Goonie fans read it.

I'm so petrified of ruining the movie because it's such a classic. I know that I can't match the humor and heart of the original like Chris Columbous and Spielberg did. I'm just trying to put my own spin on it. Unlike the supposed premises that I've heard, not all the Goonies have kids in my script. The plot is centered around them and not their children. The prologue is little homage to the original but I like it I don't know if the fans will. And not all of them are married, like Data is single but is the object of someone's affection. One couple is divorced and two are married. The reason behind the reunion is because it's Brand birthday. The adventure takes off from there and the major difference is that there is more at stake for our beloved Goonies. Hell, I'm already picking out the actors for the characters that I've created. Jennifer Anistion and Megan Mullaly are are just two actors that I have in mind. God, I'm so much of a dork that I listen to "Goonies R' Good Enough" by Cyndi Lauper as I write it! I will admit it, it inspires me greatly. Hopefully, I'll finish the script soon enough so that it can be bought, made and released by summer 2005! I'm so tired, I'm going to sleep in a few, night all.

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

.... Don't know.....
The last time I had a blog was over two years ago and frankly, I really didn't like updating it. I wasn't very committed and so eventually, I just quit updating it all together.

As I'm writing this, a million other things are going through my head. I need to work on my neglected novel "Damaged", my Goonies 2 screenplay, my scholarship essays, my other screenplay "Only A Game" and my Alias fanfic. Like right now, I planning out scenes for "Only A Game" and "Goonies 2" but of course, I've totally ignored "Only A Game."

I love horror movies, LOVE not like and of course I feel the same way about writing too. A part of me is terrified to venture into this genre because I respect the genre so much that I fear "Only A Game" would ruin it. I can't really give any details about the script because Phea (my older sister) and I fear that the premise will be stolen. What I can say is that it won't be a gorefest. I have nothing against gore, it's just something that I don't look for in a film. Obviously, I don't mind it because Nightmare on Elm Street and Friday the 13th are just a few of my favorites.

"The Ring" is probably one of the greatest horror films of all time. The script, the characters, the acting and just the overall mood drew me in. I loved how the plot brought up many questions but answered very few leaving an opening for a sequel. With "Only A Game" Phea and I are trying to create the same feeling that the "The Ring" produced but of course, we're going to put our spin on it. Now, if only I can stop neglecting my poor little screenplay.... I gotta go. Later all.